I have had four "fathers" in my life, three of which either abandoned me, made me feel unsafe, or tried to force religion down my throat. But one of my fathers did none of these things to His son--He saved my life.And this is why I love God. He was the father I was longing for in my life. The other three men discouraged, angered and confused me. My heavenly Father gently, kindly and wisely shaped me into a man of strength and courage.
How do you relate to God? Is He a good father? In your heart of hearts, where truth or perceived truth dwell, do you trust Father God? It's an important question for you to move towards answering. Why? Because every single place in your thinking and emotional makeup where you do not trust that the Father will fight for you and provide what you need, an orphan is born in your heart with the hope that it will sustain you. Fear was one of the orphan behaviors I clung to in my childhood years, hoping that if I felt worried or cautious, then bad things wouldn't happen to me. It was exhausting to live with fear in my heart every day. Orphan issues sabotage a life and my orphan fear was killing me. Until I invited God into the fear. One of the best decisions I have ever made!
I decided to trust Him enough for Him to go into the "room" of fear that i never talked about to even a single soul all these years. I let Him in to turn on the lights of a dingy, dark, cluttered, room where fear had been dictating so many of my thoughts and actions for decades. And the prayer of my heart, during those days and weeks and even months to come, as God began releasing healing and freedom from the fear I'd known was..."Father, Father me".
Three simple yet life changing words. In the immediate days after God broke the power of fear over me, of course the enemy was right there to challenge what the Father had done. But this time, in the face of a financial concern or a relational dispute--events which used to catapult me into exquiste times of fear, I found myself asking my Father to come close and father me. "Father, Father me." was what I began praying every time I was tempted to recoil or return to fear. This brief prayer was all about giving my good Father, my Abba who promises to fight and protect and provide for His children access to my heart.
It was an invitation to run to Him for wisdom, leading, perspective, power, and comfort. And what I found in the weeks and months to come was that fear not only got broken off my life, but the present temptation to return to fearing began to wonderfully fade.
It's been 10 years now since fear had its talons in my heart. My Father fathers me even still during those difficult and uneasy trials we all face. And my prayer in those vulnerable times of uncertainty is still the same-- "Father, Father me." Where do you need an orphan stronghold to be broken off of your life? Where does the Father need to father you into freedom and peace. My encouragement to you is to learn this three word prayer and resolve to invite God's presence and power into those places of your heart where orphan want to dominate. Jesus will clean house for you and promises to lead you into peaceful, fruit-bearing, joyful places.